Greener Grass

Hey bloggy pals!
Today has been a lovely day. We started off by going to church, and I totally forgot it was Pentecost Sunday so it was bright red in the church, and it was beautiful. Not to mention Dr.Garret's sermon was AWESOME! I love the way he preaches. It's beautiful. He just puts words together so well, and I am never bored or catch myself staring off into space. Then we came home, and I got to go on a date with Nathan. We went to go see Shrek 2. It was sooo funny! I loved it. It had the perfect balance of kid and adult humor. Anyway, it was lovely, and I love just being with him... :) Anywho, I then proceeded to go to my grandmother's house and search through all the old stuff in her trunk. It was so much fun! There were old drawings that I had made in the fifth grade, and I picture of me when I was six. I love being nostalgic. It just gives me comfort that once upon a time I was innocent, and I didn't care about what I looked like. I was such a happy-go-lucky kid. But all good days must come to an end. And tomorrow is going to give me no comfort. My great-grandparents are coming down for Memorial Day weekend, and my grandmother wants my sister and I to play Amazing Grace. When she first told me that I just broke down... One thing that I really remeber my great-grandpa telling me is that he wanted me and my sister to play that for him because he loved us playing together. It means to me that everything's over and we're fufilling one of his last wishes... Another thing is that he didn't have enough energy to go to church... He physically didn't have enough strenghth to get up and go. That was REALLY hard for me to take because my great-grandparents NEVER miss church. They haven't missed a Sunday since Grandpa was in the hospital...
Anywho, I didn't mean to make this entry a downer... Anywho, I hope that your day today has been marvelous, and I hope you have an even better tomorrow.
**smiles and waves**~
Suzy

My Last School Function is Over and Done!
I'm so happy! I played at graduation so now my last school function is over with, and I don't have to step into "real school" until August. I have summer school(not because I failed just because I don't have enough time to take everything during the regular year.) Not to mention summer school is soooo easy. And you can finish early. HORRAY!
It's official, my mom has finally blogged so all you faithful readers of madre's blog can go read. It's not very insightful I suppose. It's just an explaination.
Anywho, I am really hoping that mom will let me go and do something with Nathan seeing as how she said that I could as long as my room was clean. And it is now so a I have to do is ask...
Anywho, I have nothing more to say. If ya need me I am only a phone call away!
**hugs and kisses**~
Suzy

OH MY GOD IT'S SUMMER!!!
Tasty air and wind and sun and house and everything... Summer is finaly here, and I am so relieved. I was holding onto what little bit of strength I had to get thtrough it all, and I made it. Not with the best grades however. I managed to make B's in all but three of my classes. Ahhhh, I am so happy and relieved. It's almost too good to be true. However, I do have to take summer school in a few weeks, but it's dumb kid school. They all treat us like we're stupid, and it takes no thought in the least to actually make an A. I'm soooooo incredibly happy! The only bad thing is that I won't get to see Nathan as much. He has SO much to do this summer it's insane.
I'm feeling the sweet relief. I got a suprise in Chemistry. Dunstan gave me a 90 for the six weeks, and I made an 85 on my test. Leaving me with an 87 for the semester. I made it through Chemistry! HORRAY! On Babcock's terrible test I made an 81 leaving me with a not so great 85 for the semester. I barely passed the Algebra test that I thought I did good on, and I made an 87 for the semester in there too. Even though my grades were good all semester (mid 90s) a 70 on the semester test kinda killed it. I thought I did okay in Spanish too, but unfortunately, I made a 74 on the test, and got an 89 for the semester. But I know that all the rest of my grades are A's.
CHEER FOR SUMMER!!!!!!! I have nothing more to say!
I will see you all on the flip side!
I love every single one of you VERY much, and assuming I don't see you this summer, make all your summer fun incredibly awesome!
With all of my heart~
Suzy

La la la!!!
Hello Loves!
It's been pretty uneventful since I last posted. I've been pretty pissed off by some things that I read, but I can get over it. Oh well... I do want to forgive you, but you have really REALLY pissed me off. What I need is time, and I will accept your apology, I just can't totally forgive you like that, and I don't know when I will be able to. Just give me time goddamnit. You're wanting to rush things that cannot be rushed just so you can go to California with a clean conscience, and I'm sorry if I'm the reason you can't go off and have a good time. But that's really not my fault if you can't just forget about it for a few months while we are all trying to get over it. Not to mention you would be suprised by some people who are sticking up for you.
I know that I said that I hate retalliation blogs, but I just had to get that off of my chest.
Me and Katy went to "lunch" today. We went to my house to get paper towels and my Outkast CDs. Then we listened to loud music on our way to Schlotzsky's. We got glared at by many old people who I know were thinking in their heads, "Those obnoxious teens need to turn down their damn music!"
I burned myself taking pizza out of the oven on Wednesday so now I have a red bubbly mark on my arm, and it isn't a pleasant feeling.
I have been so exhausted all this week, but this weekend lasts for three days, thank you unused snow days! I need to catch up on my sleep, and listen to loud music. Tasty Tasty.
I feel like singing, and I don't know why... Mr.McCulloch almost got teary in our English class. It makes me sad that we are actually going to move forward with out lives... I don't want to go on and be a junior. It's too soon, and I need time to recooperate from the shock of getting older.
Anywho, that's about all for today my loves! I will most likely write tomorrow!
**kisses**~
Suzy

What the hell!?!
Hello all!
I hate retaliation blogs. But I love how Nathan was brought into an argument for no apparent reason. I'm not going to say anything more about it except I hope you are happy now. I will leave you with the peace that you just got that much farther away from us being friends again.
I went to the year long Superintendant Scholar luncheon today. The food was terrible and so was my tea(thanks to Zack.) I sat with Zack, Katy, and a lot of theatre people. It was fun-ish... I would have rather done something else for lunch though.
The power went off in the school today, and I was in Mr. McCulloch's class... Oh my gracious, it was SO hot! But it was way worse in the school building because all the alarms were going off and it was pitch black. I got a kick out of it though.
Anywho, I hope you had a lovely day, and I wish you an even more pleasant tomorrow.
Love Lots~
Suzy

I want to get rid of it all!
Hey
The banquet was fun last night, but it wasn't as much fun as it was last year. It was really kinda akward in the beginning, and we were all talking, but it was like something was blocking our ability to speak freely... Ya know? Liz and April left like right after the awards ceremony, and I have no idea where they went, but it sounds like Liz helped April with whatever she needed which is good. I won three awards last night, the orchestra council sophmore rep., the TMEA Music Merit Scholar, and Outstanding 10th grader... I was so suprised about the 2nd two. It made me happy to know that I was actually appreciated in the orchestra, and the funny thing is that this year I haven't tried as hard... It was crazy. Me, Nathan, Michael, Kaitlin, Ellen, and Jordan all left at about 10:15 to go to Roaster's because we were REALLY bored of the banquet, and Roaster's was closed so we decided to go to Austin Park. It was WAY too cold, and either Jacob called Michael or vice versa because we ended up spending the last of our time talking in Jacob's garage apartment. It was really fun. I had a good time.
With all the stuff that has happened recently, I feel like I have been made out to be the bad guy. It's like everyone is flocking to April asking her what's wrong, and then not asking my side of the story. I'm not trying to imply that she's saying bad things about me, it's just that I feel like nobody is talking to me about this whole situation. I just need someone to talk to without having to call them myself. I want someone to come to me for once instead of me having to come to them. I don't know I just want it to all go away, and I want a friend I can trust, and not have to question whether or not she's actually telling me what's going on or if there's something that she's hiding from me, and isn't going to tell me for months. I hate all the secrets, and the lies, and the constant nagging. I'm hurt and it's like no one cares...
Anywho, I know that that cheered you up, but I had to get that out... I hope everyone has had a merry snowday... It felt like Winter in my house. Since the temperature was really low last night, and my house was already about 70 degrees, the temperature got down to 63 in my house last night. I woke up three times because it was so cold. I know I was just complaining a little while ago how hot it was in my house... Boy how things change in a few days.
One last thing: Nathan, I love you, and you are the one person who makes me truly happy... Of course it's worth it to go out with you.
Allright, I gotta go eat some dinner!
Love you all!~
Suzy

take a break
Hello again!
All I have to say was that the banquet was fun, the food was bad, and I got willed down a bunch of responsibilities from the seniors... Which is cool no...
Anywho, school is coming to an end and I still have unresolved issues to work out, but their on the back burner because I don't want to deal. I'm tired of trying, and getting disappointed. I want to call people and ask what's going on because I feel out of the loop again, and I am confused and sad and jealous and angry... I just don't want to deal with it though
On a happier note, I can't wait for the orchestra banquet... It's going to be so much fun!!!
Anywho, I will leave you to you more eventful lives!
Goodbye friend!~
Suzy

Hello bloggy chums!
I hope that you have had a lovely Tuesday, and I hope that you have an even better Thursday!
Today, I tried to go interview for Cruisin with Tascosa, but the line was so frickin' huge that I decided that it wasn't worth it so me and Kaitlin went and sat outside with Nathan... Mr. McCulloch is possibly the best teacher ever! I made a 58 on a vocabulary quiz, and since I wrote the defintions out to the side of the word, he's letting me write sentences to bring my grade up! YAY!!!!
I am very sad(ish) because I didn't tell my mom that yearbooks were being sold today, and I kinda wanted one... Does anyone think that all the extras will have been taken? I hope not because that would make me even more sadish...
Anywho, banquet problem is solved (kinda) Liz is taking Derrick's place which makes me REALLY happy because that way, I don't get death stares! HORRAY!!!! It doesn't mean that I'm not still a little angry for one reason or another...
I got the debate banquet to go get ready for so escribira contigo luego(I will write later!)
Ta-ta mes bon amies!~
Suzy

Hellllooooooooo!!!!!
I am feeling very giggly today, and I don't know why... Maybe, it's just one of those things...
I really wonder sometimes why I bother to write on my blog seeing as how my personal feelings can be read by my friends, and they can learn things that will make them angry... But then again, I am writing so I can get it all out because I couldn't tell you face to face, I'm just not that way.
The whole thing with the orchestra banquet, the Sunburned One, is that I really don't want to sit near my ex that will give death stares to my current boyfriend. I know you want me to tell you how I want things to be, but as my sister, at six years old, told my mom, "You (in this case I) cannot make demands on my (your) life." And I don't care what the hell you do in your personal life, that's your business and I have no right to tell you what to do. I just have one simple question, whatever happened to "ex's are off limits?" I know that seems really bitchy, but you told me to be straight, and I am. Not to mention you spent $15 on a ticket. So, whatever, okay? I don't/kinda care.
Anywho, now that the bitch in me is out, I will talk about the choir banquet again. It was really nice seeing Kate and Eric together again, it made me very happy. And there were some quite studly guys there. I told my mom about all the banquets this week, and she said that this week may as well be a week of lots of dates for me and Nathan. I'm glad my mom is finally becoming accustomed to the fact that I have a boyfriend who can drive me places... She didn't really want me dating in the first place until I was 16, but she decided that that wasn't fair. And that that rule made her even more crazy in high school (what with sneaking out and partying and such.) So, it makes me happy that she approves of Nathan, and is letting us really "date." YAY for progress!!!!
Anywho, here's a tiny political rambling. If you don't want to read it then simply skip over it. :) ... I am really tired of hearing/seeing all the dreadful things that are going on in the Iraqi prison. It makes me sick that we didn't do anything about this sooner. Not to mention, now that the photos have come out to the whole world, the Middle East hates our guts even more now. I mean even some American's are hating our guts for what's going on. Bottom line: The abuse going on is simply appaling, and it makes me angry that it wasn't taken care of earlier than now. Because it could have been stopped, but it wasn't....
But I'm sorry if I offended anyone in any way, and if you want to talk to me, you know where I am (unless I am avoiding you, and in that case I will be nowhere to be found.)
Your's until the chocolate chips~
Suzy

Hey babe(s)!
I tried to post, and it wouldn't let me so now I have to start from scratch again... It makes me sad... Anywho, all I really have to say is that I went to the choir banquet, and had lotsa fun... More on this later, as I am blogging illegally, and mom is getting suspicious.
Derrick being at the banquet is going to be REALLY akward because he still hates Nathan, and probably still holds a grudge against me... Not that I have a problem with it, I just don't know what I am going to do about seating... I am in a really akward position...
Anywho, I must be off!
I love you all dearly~
Suzy

Hey guys!
I am in a much better mood today. I have pushed my problem aside in hopes that it will leave me alone... I know I keep doing this, and it's not helping, I just have a big problem with confrontation...
Anywho, Nathan got back way earlier than expected from the lake yesterday, and it made me happy. I have accomplished nothing all weekend except, I mowed the yard... And boy wasn't that a barrel of monkies. Okay, the air conditioning in my house is broken, and my mom made me mow the yard at three in the afternoon. I was so pissed off because now, I am really hot, and I can't play in the sprinkler because mom's doing yard work.... It's hotter than Hades right now.
Anywho, I hope all is well with everyone, and if it's not I'm here if ya need me.
Have a great Sunday, and a better Monday!
I love you all with all of my heart~
Suzy

FUCK!
I'm sorry, I'm really pissed right now, and I don't know how to explain it...
I'm gonna go~
Suzy

Hey kids!
I had SO much fun last night! I went with Nathan, Jordan, Kevin, Ellen, and Jordan's little brother to see Van Helsing. Word of advice on this movie... Don't see it unless you want to spend six dollars laughing at how utterly ridiculous it is. Ellen and I would just look over at each other and burst out laughing. Jordan got really mad at us for that. Because we would be the only one's laughing, and he was embarassed I suppose. After it was over he said that he was trying to take in the art that is Van Helsing, and we "ruined it." He was just kidding though... Anywho, all the people in the movie except for Van Helsing and his friar sidekick have a "Transylvanian" accent. At one part in the movie, Van Helsing's love interest is talking about Dracula's lair and says, "It's supposed to be by the ocean... I've never seen the ocean... I bet it is pretty." And that is a direct quote...
Anywho, my mom let Nathan pick me up and take me, which is a BIG step up. But then she had to tell me that she wasn't allowed to date until she was a junior, and she didn't want to do that to me becasue the ban on dating made her more crazy... I just smiled and nodded. Which I think is all you can do in that kind of situation.
Hahaha... Coming home was really funny... Story is saved for later as I don't want everyone in God's creation to know...
Anywho, my love is in New Mexico, and I probably won't get to talk to him until tomorrow... Sigh... Oh well, life goes on I suppose.
Today I get to look forward to a day of cleaning my room, and doing laundry... YAY!!!!
I will leave you all to have your fun-filled Saturday's while I am stuck in the house cleaning.
Hugs and blown kisses!~
"Hannavas"

Hello Loves!
I am home alone, and I am listening to loud music... :)
Anywho, this week has been eventful/uneventful for me depending on who you ask **wink wink ;)**
I had to take the damn AP World History test. And you know there's nothing better to do on a Wednesday afternoon from 12-5 than take a Mother F***ing hard test... It was awesome.... Not...
I had Greater Southwest on Thursday, and while we were waiting to load the bus, I laughed so hard! I haven't laughed like that all week... Anywho, it was grand and I loved being with all those people, they make me laugh really hard.
On the other hand, I am really confused about how I feel about one person (and it's not Nathan- so stop thinking that!). I feel really weird, and I can't explain it... It's like I'm angry because they're trying to copy what I do... And I don't know, maybe I'm over reacting... I just feel like once I say or do something, it's like they do the exact same thing... And I bet it's not who you are thinking... If you have any inquiries, just call me....
Anywho, it's a lovely May day, and I really want to go do something outside and possibly in a park, but alas I cannot drive, so I am stuck at home....
I love you all, but I must go!
**gives you a big smile**~
"Savvy Savannah"

Oh happy readers, this is my ramblings of my oh so boring life, and if you have a problem with it... Then, don't read it , and then you will be happy!
YAY for randomness, and Kill Bill Volume I(that movie is freaking AWESOME! But, if you have a problem with gore, then you may not want to see it.), and pink lemonade, and dancing in the rain, and kissing, and talking, and penguins, and music, and peace, and not the AP test, and candy, and pretty jewlery, and parties, and birthdays, and pick-ups(haha), and colored sharpies, and the internet, and smiling, and nonesense blog entries!!!!!!!!!! CHEER FOR SUMMER!!!!!! It freakin feels like summer at a whopping 90 degrees in the beginning of May... I long for summer, and the laziness that comes along with it... JOY!
HORRAY FOR PROCRASTINATION!!!!!!!!! I am supposed to be studying for my AP test which is tomorrow, but I am not.... Becasue I don't want to! And nobody can make me... I think my brain has leaked out of my ears... Because I am really giddy and sensless, but I think I act like this often... Oh well....
Hmmm, life is good. I have nothing to bitch or complain about. Nothing incredibly terrible has happened, and I am quite happy. I read someone's blog today, and it like I was actually glimpsing his true self, and not what he portrays at school. It made me sad that he didn't act like that all the time...
Anywho, this has been a very pointless blog entry....
Cheerio pals~
Chaquita Bananas
[hee hee :)]